Saturday, January 15, 2005
It's taken me until the middle of the first month of the year, but I think I've finally come up with the right resolution for me this year. I really wasn't striving to come up with one, because they generally get broken before this point in the year, anyway. In any case, here's my resolution, and let me tell you, it's a more painful and challenging one than you might think. Those others of you who do this blogging thing will have an idea of how challenging this will be for me to accomplish, but on to the actual resolution. When I started this blog, it was with the intention of creating a space where I could reveal deep feelings, share both happy and painful moments of my past, and try to work out in myself why I do the things I do in life. Instead, it has evolved (or devolved, if you like) into a space where I tell surface stories about my daily activities, with only the occasional glimspe into the underlayers of my psyche. My resolution for this year is to try to get back to the orginal purpose of this blog. I resolve to be more open about my feelings, share more of the stuff that rolls around in this head of mine, and tell stories of my past. That doesn't mean that I will be adopting some sort of artsy-fartsy, beatnik, navel-gazing tone all the time--it just means that I have these things rolling around in my head, getting lonely, and they need a place to hang out. I have notes already for about four different posts, some of which I may post this weekend. Or maybe not--I do have homework, you know.