Saturday, July 10, 2004
I "discovered" a new blog last night, while reading some comments over at Alan's blog. It's called "Wanderer of the North", and this entry was the one that made me realize that I'd found a gem. Arlen (the author) speaks about spiritual boredom and how it may be related to the sheer fatique of trying to keep up with all the "Martha" aspects (as I like to call them) of "doing church", or being what society (or other Christians) think a Christian ought to be. Here's an excerpt, where he is quoting author David Hansen:
"Tired Christians tend to be bored Christians. Boredom is a soul problem. But often what we feel as boredom is simply the inability to muster the mental strength to pursue something truly interesting... We get bored when we become too tired to pursue the love of life and the love of God."
I had never consciously thought that my seeming spiritual apathy might actually stem from the fact that I have so many things on my plate lately that I think I need an extra plate. But yet, I still have this feeling that I'm not doing enough, that if I just do this one more thing, my life will magically fall into place and I'll finally get some breathing space! I've been trying to do "rest", but it seems I'm not really getting any. (I'm speaking here about all aspects of my life, not just the "spiritual".) These are things to meditate upon, I think.